Today Was 9/11

[GlitterFaery™]

Well, it's 7:09 PM here and I was thinking about 9/11[01] ..


How did you feel then.. and how did you feel about it today??

[TheExiledOne13]

I didn't know what to think last year... my mom woke me up with a worried look on her face and tone in her voice and she's never like that so I instantly got worried and she woke me up out of a dead sleep saying "were in trouble... were in alot of trouble" I had no idea what she was talking about, then she said "the terroists are bombing us" of coarse she's always mis informed.

I come in my room get on the net, it's hella busy, and I turn on my tv and see whats going on, this is about the time the second plane hits, I am trying to get more info from the net so i'm turned away from my tv and I hear everyone screaming so I turn and the fireball from the second one is shown. I'm horrified of coarse but it was so much like a movie it just didn't phase me like it should of. I know it did this to alot of people, my theater professor talked about the same thing in class on the 11th last week. He lived 20 minutes from the towers and it still had the same effect on him as it did me.

Anyways I keep watching and all this stuff is coming in about the other plane still up, and they believe it to be hyjacked, my moms on the phone telling everyone they are bombing us and i'm getting pissed cause she's going on and on about something she knows nothing about. I hear them mention bin ladin so I do a search on him while i'm looking for info and read about him cause before I had never heard of him. Then comes the pentago crash... I again am sickened by the thought of people doing this but it still hasn't totally sunk in. It's around this time I try to get ahold of a friend of mine who lives in new york, and I try and try to get ahold of her but can't then eventually a few days later I get ahold of her and am thankful she is ok. I just kept watching and searching on the net for news and info on whats going on through out the day and still even a few days later I was doing so. It wasn't till I went to bed the reality of everything sunk in, and I just felt empty inside, all them lives lost, basically for a "religeous war" and not to try and joke about the situation but a religious war to me is basically people killing eachother over who has the best imaginary friend. I wasn't 18 yet, but had thoughts about if the draft came back into effect, if I wanted to join the army or navy to try and help out.. if I wanted to go to new york and volunteer to help them.. I didn't know what to do, having that empty feeling inside just made me feel so useless.

There was so much needed to be done and I didn't know what I could do. America has never dealt with anything like this and we didn't know how to take it, no one did. I felt alot of anger for the people who did that, I thought up some of the most vile and horrible ways to torture the people who did that. It makes me sick just remembering what I thought up.... Then after a few days I felt even worse cause of how alot of american's were treating arabs and other people from different countries that now live here. I hate people's ignorance...


Now I still feel bad, I mean I felt safe this year, I was at my classes and all around the college there were tons of cops in uniform and plain clothes and tons of people everywhere, news cameras, just tons of stuff, but I still get the same feeling I got later that night last year when I felt empty, I just go blank and zone out and just don't think of anything but them people.... And the pain that was caused, becuase of one man's ignorance and the actions he took in the steps of causing the pain.